I was just rummaging some previous posts and realized how terribly depressing I have become.And the whole point of this digital diary was to aid moi-self and the likes of me through the rainy days.Cutting myself some slack,I have witnessed a few setbacks this past year.But golly!gee,losing Hope altogether,spiraling into a limbo of abject abyss,that’s just scary.Quite an irony then I must say for today’s post is just about that:Being Sad.
It has been probably a real long span of time,(can’t even date it back.=/),when I had had a reckless amount of fun(yes!that is my definition of being insanely happy),and yesterday was just the pits.I maybe cried my eyeballs out yesterday.Why you ask?I was sad.Why?I just can’t explain why.
Have you ever felt lonely,even with friends/family around?
Have you ever felt abashed,albeit everyone assumes you are the Confidence King/Queen?
Have you ever felt sad,just ’cause?
(This scenario reminds me of Katy Perry’s ‘Firework’.On the surface the song seems quite juvenile,but it is sometimes my go-to song.A secret I can ONLY share here.)
Anyhoo,cutting to the chase,has there been an instance where you have felt like no one understands you,like admitting to what you feel would only cause more pain(or in my case hurt my ego),like instead of moving forward you’re stuck in a constant flux or every step automatically leads you backward?
Have you ever felt sad and no one to talk to/guide you/aid you,most importantly stick out for you,or simply hug you and say,”Regardless,I am here for you”.
I have,countless number of times.
I feel sad ALOT,not ’cause I a pessimist perceiving the glass half empty,but ’cause I am human,and I cannot be void of feelings.
Yesterday,I felt sad,VERY sad.I missed my BFF and couldn’t speak with him.I needed a hug and didn’t get one.I needed to move forward,but couldn’t.And no,with my rouse from the slumber today did not change any of that,yet,my sharing my sadness with YOU,HERE makes me feel a little better.(Also ‘Fix You’ by Coldplay and ‘Shake it Out’ by Florence and the Machine).Not every time you feel sad,you shall have someone to need(Be clear NOT WANT,NEED),but you will have yourself,be your own best friend.
And if like me,you feel sad ALOT LOT,don’t count yourself a pessimist,just be equally happy,when you truly are happy(Balance it out/negate it!).And isn’t it quite amazing,that you have people who understand you,are there for you,to be there,to hug you,to let you know you are not alone?To me it sure is:a true blessing.
So,if you ever feel sad and have no one to talk to,I’m here for you.ALWAYS.Like y’ll are there for me.=)